Day 2 - 28.08.2015

11h
We leave home to go to Jay's mom's.
He's avoiding me.
I touch his hand "by accident" in the car and he pull's it away. He never did that. Not in two and a half years.
I'm feeling blue.

14h35
Still not one kiss. Not one touch. Nothing.
He asks me what's wrong. I put it out on the table how I'm feeling. What have I done?!
Another argument...
"I need time." Jay says.
Only thought that runs through my mind is "you need time? And what about me and what I need?"
Ok... I'll give you all the time you need! How I feel is not important.

23h50
"Let's go to sleep."
One more day feeling shitty, unwanted, like if he was looking all day long for every posible excuse to be busy with something in order not to have to engage in phisical contact...

Day 1 - 27.08.2015

27-08-2015
Congrats!
It's our 30 months aniversary!
We made through all life threw in our way for 2 and a half years, side by side! Together!

09h30
I leave home to go to my doctors apointment, as he called me yesterday saying we needed to talk.
Jay stayed behind taking a bath. He's coming to. The doctor wants a word with both.

10h30
"Tested positive for what?" - I asked.
"HIV" - he said.

Void

Who the fuck pulled the chair from under my ass and the floor beneath my feet?

12h
Job interview. No comments.

14h
Jay took a pill and is now asleep. I'm heading to another job interview.

20h
Jay wakes up. He tell's me he will never leave me.
I just don't feel it.